sighs

i hate myself for being so weak
i'd always 'called' myself as a strong, firm person .

but all these while i'd been deceving myself
im not at all strong.
im faking all along

the truth is that -
im indecisive, weak person
i've always been like that
esepcially when i came t stnicks
i became weaker
i cry more often.

what's wrong
sometimes i really envy her
she could keep her emotions t herself so well
so well that i never thought she would feel this way
hey, __ if you're reading this
i hope you'll cherish her more
though i doubt you'll see anyway.

i think there's someting wrong with my tear glands
yeah fix them for me doc ?
dontwant t cry anymore
it's a sad world outside.

yes thats us !
RHIZOMES :D :D :D
hahah one of the grp photos we took during camp
yay i love my grp .
the JTC word on the floor was created by qinning and huiying by rubbing their wet butts on the floor
hahahaha !
cool ehh?
sighs two more days t school re-opening.
sian lah !!
i dread school...
sushilla will leave.. but more homework will come frm other tchers
rahh idiot.
omg i love snsj !!
but im very disappointed with my sqd..
and myself..
our fd and fa so lan
we've let the sec fours down..
esp valerie ma'am who keeps trying and wanting t teach us new stuffs
but we just couldn't get our basics right..
was really sad t hear that they thought that our sqd has no potential..
our sqd is really lan.. and disappointing
but i hope that we can improve very soon
but ownself i also dont rly like this sqd
there are too many ppl and like quite some conflicts
so many different type pf people
random characters
sighs.. really envious of the greys and reds
they are sososo bonded !!
and their fd and fa also very qiang
the yellows are also good
haii we really must buck up!
i really must improve in my fa and fd.
the greys are passing out soon
im dreading pop !!
ugh my sqd item keep changing and its like i doubt it will be even half as good as the reds
they are like super qiang lah
the yellows are also doing well
left with only our sqd.
i really want t put up a good performance
t show t the greys that we actually care
yes we really do!
i cant believe what will happen aft they pass out
and then the reds will pass out too
the reds are super enthu that i doubt the yellows and the darkblues could ever catch up
really really no offence
i really hope that time will stop and everything will remain
i dont mind being a jnr forever
i cant imagine what will happen when we become ma'ams
snsj will kua in our hands
NO THAT CANNOT HAPPEN !!!
if it rly happened then we'll let all the snrs dwn
really lost..
time flies..

jtc'06

whoa hello guys !
long time no post liao.
guess the last post was on 8 june.
time flies !
okay these mainly two impt stuff during the hols
6GRA CLS GATH& JTC 2006
sad t say, cls gath was a disappointment.
still, i had alotalot of fun with old frens !
ahh old things are still the best ! :D

well jtc was GREAT !!
3 days 2 nights
RHIZOMES
JEANNIE SHIRLENE HUIYING QINGNING HILARY JESMINE JAZREEL DARICE ME !
i love my group man!
though we're not the best, i really enjoy being with them and part of the grp !
cant imagined i crapped so much t the sec twos !
HAAHAHH !!
i love my bunk mates too, from TESTA !
the snrs were all so nice !
they helped us with so many things !
like during changing parade and bunk checks .
the bunk checks were energy- sapping.
we had t standardised all our items and if we didnt our items will be swept away
once wenxun ma'am came into our bunk and swept all our items when she saw one item of one of our bunk mate's not aligned.
then we had t align them properly agn and goes on until they are all aligned.
also the changign parade
change into our uniform in 5 mins !
wahhhhh it was even more energy sapping.
but they were really kind t us and made us do that thrice only
if you compare that t last year's jtc.( according t the sec twos)
changing parade was super super tough though !
there goes, pumps agn.
whee but i really like the group effort.
also another tough one, extras!!
the first night's extra was quite easy and relaxed because valerie ma'am took us
but definitely NOT t the second one !!
wenxun ma'am took over.
initially i though it wont be that tough but i was so wrong !
we did pumps t crunches (sp?) t sit-ups and over and over agn.
whoa cannot tahan lah but must continue doing lah.
i almost died during the last sets of situps can.
then cont slping until sentry duty
yupp then besides these activities we also had triage and activation
with the sec fours acting as casualties
it was rly a good experience !!
now im getting t like fa.
yay cheers for me !
hahaha (:
and and the outdoor games !!
yes it rocked !
RHIZOMES !!
seriously we didnt win any game but only tied twice
but who cares !
it for the fun of it!
it was quite ironicle that we won first for the points accumulated
guess it must be the cheng yu games and the thousand legged game
aahhhh i really love my group!
more than my sqd, believe it ?
the cheng yu game was sososo funny.
our chinese standard damn good okay!!
however sadly we didnt have the changign parade for the third day
wahhh i want my changing parade !
a few sqdmates were like o.O at me
but i really wanna relieve the bunk/grp effort !!
it was really nice.
i love my grp cheer and the combined group item !
aahh the sec fours are gna pass out soon
come t think of it, its really sad.
through this camp i knew more of them
ahh..
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Rhizomes are cool
And so are you !
this grp cheer of ours is veryvery short i knw
but its supposed t be short& sweet
hahaha
oh and if you dunno, 'you' refers t the gamemasters
hahaha :D
aahhhhhhhh jtc rocked .
i knew so many more people.
ahhh..
JTC ROCK , SNSJ ROCK

alyson's quizzie !!

lol im back agn aft a few mins
--"
saw alyson's quiz in her blog: http://perfect-destiny.blogspot.com
hahahah seemed very fun so i RIPPED it !!
:x hope you dont mind girl !! :D :D

yupp im not gna use the [x] thingy t mark cos i think it will be be quite ma fan
yah so those that i think i am i will highlight with another colour
yay --"
here goes :

I know how to make a pot of coffee.
I do my own laundry
I can cook for myself.simple ones
I do my chores after being told once
I actually enjoy intellectual conversationsehh i really do !
I think politics are excitingehhLOL
My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers
I show up for school/work every day
I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
I've never gotten a ticket
I watch talk shows and point out the incredibility of it all
I know what incredibility means without looking it uphaha stup.
I drink black coffeeeee so bitter !
I know how to run the dish washer or do the dishes
I can count in more than one language
When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.really lah !!
I mow the lawn
I wash my carlol no car
I can make adults laugh..without being stupid
I study when I have to
I pay attention at school/workYES !!
I remember to feed my pets
I'm generally organized
I can spell organized without looking at the line above
The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee
I can go to the store without getting something I don't need
I understand jokes the first time they are saidsometimes i dont (x
I understand the fact that the world always screws someone over
I can type fast
My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something like that
I can watch politics and laugh because I understand what is going on
I no longer watch cartoons.
I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
I can look at someone hot and not think of sex.err...so RA
I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a jobooh dint knw that
I can read a book and actually finish it
People have said that I act older than I am
I can be sent on an errand and not get sidetracked.

.............

Count the number of Xs [highlighted]and thats the age you act.

LOL i act like 16.
is that too old for me ?
lol lol lol
hahaha interesting .

hmm .

AH !

okay im sosososo wrong
i'll be leaving at 11th june, which is a SUNDAY !!
ARGH !!
I HAVE CIP ON THAT DAY !!
I FORGOT I THOUGHT WAS MONDAY !!
okay nvm change it t saturday then ):

yeah yanjun leaving s'pore tmr !! )':
just smsed her goodbye !!
BYEBYE LP !!!
HAVE FUN (:
I WANT SOUVENIER ~
hahaha jkjk !!

okay maureen also leaving on 11june
wahh same date !!
hahaha yay !!
but she coming ltr than me
hmphmphmhp :/ :/ :/
ehh lol .

tday had sj !!
wow practised sizing up drill( if im not wrong)
for pop during july i suppose
so cool man !
and so fun !
but very tired lah
spend almost the whole day in sch
but veryvery nice lah
can feel the 'teamspirit' into making up a good show
yupp
but my sqd's skit still..
ugh dont talk about it
i broke my toenail !!
the smallest one !!
as in really whole nail hanging gng t drop !
WAHHHHHH !!
cos during drill keep turning..
haiz..
hope my efforts will pay off
yeah

sianned
dunwan t do homework
nth t do
boo.

1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY <3

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY LAOPO <3

7 june !

WHEEE LAOPO I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU !

NO MATTER WHAT

YOUR THE ONE& ONLY IN MY HEART !

MUACKS !! :D :D :D

ahh sorry laopo tday cannot pei you ! ):
cos tday i had sqd meeting and proj meeting ):
only 7 ppl went for sqd meeting --"
but quite fun tho :D
proj meeting also okay, yupp !
but nothing still can be compared t being with you !
ahh i missed you !! )):

Feel the love on your
skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips :D

YAY I LOVE YOU !

2006, June

2006, March

2005, December

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUBREY LEE :D :D :D
hehe im so ncie right !
hahahah so your fifteen year alr !
mwahahah hope you get all your pressies that you wanted !
and study hard ! dont let that long leg hair woman pick on you !
fyi, long leg hair woman isnt my mom okay !
im not that bad (x

okayokay so alone at home !
WHOOTS.!!!
can do whatever i want !!
though i used t be afraid (x
okay so ltr gng out t celebrate sister's birthday
yay pizza hut :D :D :D

ugh stupid epebble !
print what assesment homework !!!
WTH PRINTER JAM D:
dwan t do dwan t do homework !!
mwahahahs
ZHENZHENG I LOVE YOU !!
you never fail t encourage me !
COURAGE.
heheheh (x

YAYYYY ! OMGOMGOMGGGGG HAWTT !!
SHEENA JUST SENT ME PHOTOS ON HER BIRTHDAY THAT TIME
OMGOMG YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !
WAHAHAH DURING APRIL 8
6 DAYS AFT MY BDAE WAHAHA (x
{ many many many minutes later.. }
wahh still havent load !!
cos the files damn big !!
ahhh load faster leh ...
FINALLY...

sheena's pressies ! given by us :D

yay thats us :D :D including her sis, denise with cake !


mwahahah ! that hyper funky joanna never seen before !


so thats us and sheena the star*, wheeeeeeeeee love you guys !

OMFG RIGHTT . sheena's choo choo train cake, it was actually much bigger and nicer, but he other half of it fell so yeah. A LOT OF MARZIPAN !!!

so thats the photos !
still have a few more but cannot upload too many as i said before
blogger picture hosting limits
okay gng out soon alr !
WHEEE :D

YAD EROM ENO

UGH

haii okay tday dint go for sqd meeting
cos had headache
probably cos i slept late at night
walao ytd until 3.20 i still havent sleep
hmm cos im thinking of our cls gath thats why
haii this wont get off my head until its all planned
see im so responsible :D

anyway
AUBREY LEE
DID YOU READ MY GREEN BOOK
YOU DID RIGHT
PLEASE RETURN IT BACK
UGH